Why You Need a Lindsay

You need a Lindsay. And I’m going to tell you why.

The love of my sister Lindsay AMAZES me. She is one of the greatest gifts in my life. Do you know why? She gives me the most precious of things: unconditional love, and the complete freedom to be myself.

If you’re like me, you sometimes wonder if you’re really unconditionally loved. Yes, people love you: family, spouses, etc.  But let’s be honest. Do you ever feel like they only love you because it’s in their job description? Or perhaps you think they might love you NOW, but if they EVER discovered X, Y, and Z, they would turn and run as fast as they could. Or maybe you feel like if you stop living up to EXACTLY who and what they want you to be, then they will see how unworthy you are of love.

But that’s the thing about unconditional love. THERE ARE NO CLAUSES. There is no job description that they have to live up to. They might discover X, Y, and Z, or maybe they already know it—and it DOESN’T MATTER. And maybe you stop living up to who and what they think you should be, just to discover 1) They never thought that in the first place, and 2) They are just so glad that you’re being YOU that it doesn’t matter HOW you do it.

That’s the second part: freedom to be yourself. This is what I have learned from my sister Lindsay. ImageI can be the exact mess of a person I am, and she still somehow loves me. Not just loves me, but thinks I’m AWESOME. (No, I’m serious, she really does. No bribes or anything.) She thinks my silly words are brilliant and my lame jokes are hilarious. Some days I am depressed and moody and stressed. That’s ok with her. It’s just a good excuse to go get ice cream so we can eat it and talk, cry, or whatever. I can express my worst feelings and most terrible thoughts, and Lindsay listens and wants to hear more. That’s a GIFT, people. It’s hard to find.

But it CAN be found. So here’s your challenge: start looking for your Lindsays. You may not think you can find that love and freedom, but I believe you can. It may be someone you already know, but you simply haven’t realized it yet. Stop trying to fit into their “perception” of you and let them love your imperfections.

So risk some things. Be a little silly. Say something dumb. Let people see the real you…because very possibly, they will LOVE it. That’s what I’m learning from my sister.

I am praying you find your Lindsay, too. And then, be a Lindsay for someone else.


Guess what? Internet!

TheUpdate ThUrsday

Wow, I feel like most of what I write these days are TheUpdate ThUrsdays! To be fair, not only has it been holiday season where there is business with family, traveling, etc., but I was in Georgia visiting my grandparents for the last week. And if you have read previous posts about my visits to Georgia, you know I get no internet there. Sad day, I know. Technically, I could have wandered to the Krystals up the street and bought a coke to use their Wi-Fi, but I never get around to that either. Additionally, I had gone to Austin two days after Christmas and got back a day before I went to Georgia, so I really haven’t had a lot of time to sit down at the computer anyways.

SO. Update time.

After Christmas, my sis and I got to have a road-trip to Austin with my aunt. It was a blast, and we had a lot of fun getting to visit with her more since she lives in Massachusetts and we don’t get to see her as often as we’d like. PLUS, I got to see my boyfriend Scott which was fabulous; otherwise, I wouldn’t have gotten to see him till this coming weekend (which would’ve made it a month since we’d seen each other). Scott and I spent time with my sister, aunt, and a friend of hers; but we also had some great time to ourselves. I think it was one of our best visits together.

We got back from Austin on the 29th, and Lindsay and I left the next day for Georgia. We had a great visit with my grandparents there. Do to health and other reasons, they really don’t sit in their house most of the day every day, so we were glad to be able to give them some company. We had a good time. My mom came a few days after we did and spent the rest of the week there with all of us. We also got to see my uncle, and my aunt and her husband also drove down to visit. While we were there we celebrated the 65th wedding anniversary of my grandparents–how cool is that! Plus, during the visit, I hit the library hard and read 6 1/2 books between Saturday afternoon and Tuesday night. It was fabulous. (The 1/2 book came from one I started but decided not to finish.)

And now we’re back home in Texas. It’s good to be back with my dad and my puppy Ellie. Tomorrow is a pretty big day for me. If you remember I previously mentioned that I had a full-time job opportunity come up, and I’m going tomorrow morning for the second interview which could determine whether or not I get the job. This could be an awesome opportunity for me, and I’m praying God will open that door if that’s where He wants to take me. Please pray/keep your fingers crossed/wish me well/whatever-the-heck-you’d-like! I will let you know if I get the job.

I’ll be trying to catch up on my blogging soon. Hope you are having a fabulous week!

Of all the topics I might choose

After my last post talking about regrets, I pondered what to write next. I pondered a cute and funny post to offset the seriousness of the last one. I thought about a hopeful, inspiring post to assure readers I wasn’t completely depressed. I mulled over posting a random topic, like my thoughts on a movie or on some trending issue. I considered telling a story from my childhood, or passing on some life lesson I have learned post-college. I have finally been able to keep up better with following others’ blogs, so I have tons of food for thought. And in the end, I could not settle on an idea to write about. Except, obviously, to tell you all the things I considered writing about but (also obviously) did not.

At this point in the post I was going to segue into recounting other interesting happenings in my life or at least into some witty ending. Alas, I can think of nothing. Really all I am doing is sitting on my couch, watching Criminal Minds, listening to the swishing of my washing laundry, and occasionally texting Scott. Tomorrow I get to wake up early, drive to Abilene, attend a doctors appointment, see my sister and other friends, and come back on Saturday.

And for the moment, that is the extent of the interesting things I can recount to you, and this is the wittiest of all endings I can come up with.

Is it possible? I have a…break?

Ladies and gentlemen, I have had no kid-math to do since Monday evening! I handed my two girls off to another lady on staff, and she/others will be watching them till this Sunday when I come back and take over for part of the week. That night I got to go out and celebrate my birthday along with two other friends who had birthdays close to mine. Where did we have this wild and crazy party? Most definitely at Dairy Queen! (Heck yes. Watch out, world.)

The next morning I drove to visit my family in the Dallas area. It was my sister’s birthday, and she was under the impression that I still had to work till Wednesday (which was the original plan). So she was super surprised when I pulled up, and ran out the door screaming and ended up crying when she hugged me. It was pretty sweet. I can’t believe my baby sis is growing up so fast! We had a good day together with our family, including a home-made birthday cake. (Ok, seriously, there aren’t four people in this world who can go through a birthday cake faster than my family.)

Since then…well, I’ve hardly known what to do with myself. Mostly it involves reading and being online. I’ve been working on the book I mentioned before, Enchantment, and it’s very good. I’m almost done with it, and then my sister is insisting that I read the next three books in the Twilight series. So other than reading, talking with people online, and spending time with my family…um, nope, nevermind. That’s pretty much all I’ve been doing. Oh, and sleep.

Well. Hmmm. What on earth do I have to talk about when I don’t have children as inspiration? I’ll have to work on that.

If you had a few days off, what would you be doing?

New poem on my writing blog: She walked in the night.

I heart Sundays with my sister

Have I mentioned I have the most awesome sister ever? Her name is Lindsay. And she’s pretty much amazing.

Me and Lindsay at a younger age :)

Me and Lindsay at a younger age 🙂

I got to see my dear friend Jenny get married yesterday to an awesome guy named Andrew. It was so sweet to be at their wedding; Jenny has been such a dear and sweet friend to me over the past couple of years. I’m so happy for her! I had to leave the reception early, but fortunately it was for a good reason – I picked up my lil’ sister! She just got back from a May-term trip to Native American reservations in Arizona (I know, cool, right?). We had a lovely moment when we got in the car, turned and looked at each other, grinned, and exclaimed “Lindsay!!” (me) exactly at the moment she exclaimed “Katy!!”

So we got to come home last night and chill together. I got to hear all about her trip, and we caught up on other small matters. Then we mostly watched TV and hung out. Sound boring? But it’s not, because we did it as only we can. (It’s true. We make up our own unique kind of interactive atmosphere. No one else can compare.)

This morning we got to go to church together, which is always awesome. I love getting to worship with my sister! The worship time was amazing and refreshing – absolutely wonderful. And the sermon was both encouraging and challenging. We both left in great moods and came home to eat lunch.

Since then we’ve been chilling. It may sound like not much, but it’s been great. We’ve watched some shows together, sat side by side on our respective laptops talking to other people online…yeah, it’s been great bonding time. But seriously! It has. Cuz we keep laughing at each other and saying random things, the awesome and witty comments that only we can appreciate the most because we get each other’s sense of humor.  So it’s been a rather nice, relaxing day, all the better simply because we spent it together.

Random facts:

  • I cannot swipe a credit card into the Sonic card reader with my left hand. I tried 3 times. Something about the timing/angle I manage with my left hand does not work. Only with my right hand did the card slide in just right to be accepted. Crazy.
  • I finally bought the little white-powdered donuts I have been craving for the last day and a half.
  • Awesome quote by my sister – “Deodorant: It’s like food for your armpits.”

The last few days

Hey everyone, I haven’t gotten a chance to write much the last several days. Those days have been quite busy! If you have kept up with me on Twitter, you know that Wednesday-Friday I took over one of the girls’ homes at the children home I work at. So basically I got to be a “mother” for 7 girls for three days and two nights. It was awesome and crazy! Of course I see these girls almost every day so I know all of them well–and for the record, they are all amazing girls. I love each one of them. For these few days I got to live with them in their house, run them to school, pick up from school, cook for them, put them to bed, watch a movie with them, stuff like that. It was really great, although it’s definitely crazy keeping up with 7 girls (any time I went anywhere, all seven had to go with me) plus my regular duties of doing rec for the kids. And golly they get up early! I got up at 5:30 AM on Thursday morning and 5:00 on Friday (all the girls are usually up by 5:45 AM). I don’t know how they survive on that amount of sleep!

Friday I did afternoon rec. My boyfriend Dan came in that afternoon, and we had a good time together. That evening we went to the Little League game with a family I have babysat for since about 4 or more years. Their son is in Little League, so Dan and I joined them to watch the game. Their son scored the first run! We got to visit with them at their home later, playing Wii with their two children. It was a lot of fun! Dan and I ended the evening with ice cream and a movie (and is there really any better ending to a day? Well, perhaps, but it’s a close call).

Saturday we helped my sister move out of her dorm and stored stuff in my apartment’s extra room. It would have taken a lot more time without Dan to help move the big stuff like the refrigerator. Afterwards, Dan and I drove to Weatherford where we met up with his family that evening. I spent the night at his sister’s and went to church with his family that morning at the church Dan’s brother-in-law pastors. Then…I drove to Dallas to surprise my mom for Mother’s Day!! I got to visit with her and my dad as well as my grandparents. It ended up being a wonderful trip, and I loved having the time with my parents. We got to spend time talking as well as relaxing together. At one point I was eating pumpkin bread and watching Star Trek with my dad…a lovely little moment in life.Copy of erika headshot2

Just so you know, I have an amazing mother. She has been with me through so much, including weeks or months at hospitals or treatment centers when she watched me go through all sorts of things. But she was always strong for me, even when it was just us away from my dad and sister. She has listened and talked me through so much. She has been a loving example of a mother and wife. She is so loving and always giving. She will go out of her way for others and give till she has nothing left. She loves the Lord and dedicates her life to Him. If I could be half the woman my mother is, I would be proud. I love you, Mom.

So I drove back home from my parents’ today, and now I’m getting ready to start the rest of the week. I hope your week had just as wonderful a beginning as mine.

New piece of scratch fiction on my writing blog: Headache.