‘Hoping someone is listening’

Today, I read the Wikipedia article on Twitter. The last sentence gave me something to chew on. It said that Twitter had been “satirized…as an addiction to ‘constant self-affirmation’ and said tweets were nothing more than ‘shouts into the darkness hoping someone is listening.’ “

Of course, I proceeded to then tweet about it:

It’s been said that tweets are “shouts into the darkness hoping someone is listening.” What do you think?

While I am mostly waiting to hear other people’s responses, these are a few other questions/thoughts I have on the matter:

Since when is it wrong to hope?

Since when is it wrong to be heard?

Since when is it wrong to shout into the darkness in a belief that we’re not alone?

 

What do you think?

Pondering the Status

If you’re anything like me, you ponder your status in life. And by that, I mean THE status…the Facebook status. (Twitter updates are also acceptable.)

I joke about it, but I do spend time thinking about what I want to update my status to be. Will it be something funny that happened that day? A witty thought? Some clever, deep, insightful comment? A verse or quote I love, a song lyric stuck in my head? It’s to the point where circumstances and my thoughts just become more food for statuses to be put on Facebook or Twittered about. (Let’s pretend that’s comical rather than pathetic, ok? K.)

So tonight, I had just finished reading a great book called Crazy Love. And I was trying to figure out how to put the millions of thoughts and emotions I had into a status. I had just read dozens of thought-provoking, deep, challenging statements and ideas…which one was worthy to be entered into a text box and shared with all my friends?

And somehow the result ended up being…I couldn’t let my next status be about me. The only appropriate response I could think of was to use my status to see what I could somehow do for someone else. My status ended up simply being: “How could I pray for you today?”

It’s too easy to spend my day contemplating what my status is or will be. But I can’t think of a better way to spend my day than focusing more on the status of other people’s lives, rather than my own.

 

How to become one of my favorites (…if you’re a book/movie)

This blog topic is thanks to the wonderful suggestion from my dear friend Ashley. I put out the open-ended question “What should I write about next?” on places like Twitter, Plurk, Facebook, etc., promising to write about the best topic. Since only two people responded, I will write about both of their topics in separate posts. Ashley’s topic gets to go first, since she was the first to reply. :)

I have thought more about what I like in books than in movies, but I believe the general principles apply to both. Allow me to share my humble opinions with you.

A good book/movie has:

1) A twist in the plot. I cannot stand stories that are utterly predictable. Granted, most stories have some elements of predictability. But if I could sit down and write out the ending for you, your book/movie is not going to be one of my favorites.

2) Thought-provoking material. Most of the time, I want stories that give me something to think about. Probably because of my psychology and English degrees, I like analyzing. I like finding symbolism and layers of meaning. Now, before I sound like a total nerd, I enjoy mindless stories as well. I am a fan of nights where I curl up on the couch with ice cream and a book that is as pointless as ice cream is to weight loss. But, overall, at least give me some kernel to gnaw on if you’d like to be one of my favorite books/movies.

3) Engaging content. By this I mean that the story has to pull me in. It must be able keep my attention; I don’t want the hours dragging by as I’m reading/watching the material. My favorite books/movies are the ones where I end up shocked by how quickly time has flown because I have been so engaged in the story.

4) A range of emotions. I like to laugh; I like to be moved to tears. If a book/movie can do both, genuinely, then it’s a favorite.

5) A bittersweet ending. Now I can’t say this is a must for every book/movie, and a good deal of my favorites do not have this. If, however, the story can end in a bittersweet way, with you feeling happy and satisfied with just a hint of regret about something (even if it’s only that the story is over), to me that is true genius. Any story can end well. It takes brilliance to find just the right tone of a bittersweet ending. If a book/movie can do that, it is a favorite.

Any agreements/disagreements to my list above? What makes a good book/movie for you?

And then there were five…wait, six?

Well, I’m still living with and taking care of the girls at the children’s home. Their house dad is still here, but most of the time he is in his apartment with his kids, packing things up since he has move out at the end of the week. So I try to take over most things, but it does take a lot of time to remember everything there is to do. Today, though, two of our older girls left to go home early for their three-week vacation (this is when the kids go home to the family they do have for part of the summer). This means I was down to just five girls to watch after, so I was excited to be able to spend more time focusing on the girls individually. Then, I found out another girl from a different house on our campus is moving in with us for the week, so I’m back up one more girl. It’s not a problem overall, I just want to give each girl the attention they need.

The week’s been good, just very busy. In the mornings/evenings, I’m with the girls. Wednesday-Saturday, I was also attending a training online (joining a training in New England via Skype). It was a really great training about using online tools and networks to help create change. It was definitely very life-changing for me and helped remind me the important things in life to focus on. I also got to meet some awesome people that I’ll be working with some this summer, and we also learned a lot about social media tools. Now I’m not only on Twitter, Facebook, and MySpace, but I have added Plurk to the mix and have started using Ping to update my statuses. Phew! Of course I’m also on 20 Something Bloggers and have started making a Second Life character.

Yes, my name is Katy, and I may be becoming an internet addict.

Here is my venting for today: I got really frustrated earlier this morning because the girls got picked up at 10:00 to go to a graduation party at a lake for one of the boys here at the Home. So I was excited because I had some time to myself and was going to go to church. Now I absolutely love my church, and it’s a special time to me. I get there and ten minutes into it, my phone starts buzzing my pocket. I answered it. Apparently one of the girls from the other houses needed someone to stay with her, and the staff member who was supposed to be there wasn’t. I asked if anyone else could watch her since I was at church, but of course no one else was available and everyone was ready to go to the lake. So I left church and drove back with the worst attitude. I was so mad that I was the one to have to change my day and come back to fix everything. I even cried for, like, two seconds in the van.

Needless to say I wasn’t happy about it all, but I watched them for an hour until the staff member showed up. I did have several hours to myself after that and even managed a few hours nap. I finally realize that sometimes this just happens in the adult world of being a young professional, and I needed to forgive and move on. I didn’t need to take offense over it or feel “used.” So I choose to get a better attitude and let it go.

The girls got back late tonight, so I had some time to myself. In the morning I have to get the girls up early for pictures the Home is taking. I will probably have part of tomorrow off before coming back in the late afternoon. The younger girls are begging me to let them watch Twilight tomorrow night, so we’ll see.

Alright, I probably should get to bed so I can get up on time. Hopefully I’ll sleep through the night again, since I’ve been struggling with insomnia again the last two weeks. Plus I need all the sleep I can get to deal with these five…er, six girls.

Wasting (?) a day

Hello friends. Guess what? I am sick today. It’s a lovely experience. I woke up yesterday with a sore throat but figured a good night’s rest would clear it up. Well, I woke up several times anyway, and then woke up feeling worse than before. I’m pretty sure I have a sinus infection. Still hoping it will go away on its own.

Being sick, I had decided to skip Tae Kwon Do. Granted, I have been skipping for a while, something I feel increasingly guilty over. Last week I had almost passed out in class on Monday, so I took off Tuesday to rest. Wednesday-Friday I was serving as a house-mother for seven girls, so of course I didn’t have time then. Monday I was visiting with my parents (a wonderful trip), so I did not have time then. I was up too late Monday night, so Tuesday was no time to go–better to sleep in and make sure I was rested. Yesterday I had the afore-mentioned sore throat, and today I felt worse than yesterday. All that to say–I had better pull things together and get into TKD! I’m trying to reclaim it and not let it become a stressor. I will do it for my reasons, and those alone.

Since I have been sick, I have rested on my couch most of the day. I did have lunch with a dear friend, a lady who knows my parents well. She and I used to meet regularly in a mentoring relationship but had not connected much this semester. It was good to catch up. After that, I have been on my couch, resting and surfing through my computer/the internet. I have spent lots of time trying to beat a skateboarding online game (yes, crazy). I have looked through Twitter updates and messaged people on Facebook. I have perused blogs and left comments. And now I have work in 40 minutes, and I wonder…have I wasted my day?

Yes and no. I do think I needed to rest, and this day that I’ve had all to myself has been nice (especially since tomorrow involves child-care behavior management training which I will attend from 9am-2pm). I do tend to push myself, and sometimes when I get sick it’s my body’s way of telling me to slow it down. And while all those things listed above are not necessarily bad to do, and are probably even good to do, I feel that I could have added in a couple of more things that were slightly more productive (especially than the skateboarding game).

Have I really spent time in the Word today? No, not really. Have I spent time in prayer today? No, not really. Have I really lived with consciousness in The Presence? Only a little. Have I really taken time to love people? Some. Have I contemplated “what really matters?” For a bit. Not that life is all about those things, and I have far too long lived in the deep, serious recesses of life without playing those online skateboarding games. But in the good things in life, I do not want to forget the best.

I want to learn to waste some days healthily, and yet to never really waste a day in the ways that matter.

Those are my thoughts for today.

To see some more of my thoughts, glance at my poem The Word: Hear and Obey on my writing blog.